You

Ironically I started writing this and my computer froze. Me being me considered taking this as a sign from the universe that I shouldn’t write it but then I decided “what the heck”, maybe there’s someone that needs to hear this too so here goes. 

Sometimes I worry that people aren’t going to like me if I gain weight. That somehow because I’m wearing a different jean size it’s going to make me inherently unlovable. Somehow it will completely change the fact that they (hopefully) like me for things like my personality, kind heart, maybe even my loud laugh and not because of the size of my clothes or the shape of my body. If that is why you like me then it’s been fun but see you later!👋🏻

I think this is something I’ve always subconsciously thought about. I’ve always (without even realising) prided myself on my size and when it changed, I panicked. I need to address the fact that it changed because that’s where my body was comfortable and happy and for the first time ever I’d given it permission to figure that out. Yes it, at times, freaked me the fuck out but that’s another story.

I guess the point that I’m trying to make for myself, and anyone reading this is that people don’t (and shouldn’t) like you for what you look like. They don’t care what size clothes you wear, how much you weigh, what colour your hair is, even how you like your coffee, the list could honestly go on! And just a reminder that if they do care and/or feel the need to point it out then not only are they a complete douche bag of a human being but they don’t deserve to have someone as amazing, kind hearted, and kick ass as you in their lives. 

I really hope that you stop letting the number on your clothes, and the way your body looks define you because you deserve all of the health  happiness in the world and (I’ve totally stolen this from somewhere but I have no idea where) you don’t see the way your face lights up when you talk about the people and things that you love, or the twinkle in your eyes when you have an idea. 

You are an absolute bad ass of a human being and you can’t see how incredible you are and I promise you that people love you for who you are and not how you look. ❤️